I am not a fan of the “spotlight”. I don’t campaign to be Ms. Popularity. However, I do enjoy basking in the appreciation of friends, family, and peers when I do well at something, whether it is for work or for pleasure.
In one of my old posts I mentioned how I prefer being behind the camera, rather than in front of it. This is still true. I guess long-grained insecurities are hard to remove. However, when it is pointed my way I am not the type to hide from the camera or cringe. I think that watching ANTM with Erika has taught me a thing or two about “working it” in front of the camera. At the very least, I know I don’t look awkward, hehehe.
One thing I’ve learned … we are either our worst critic or biggest fan. I guess that isn’t going to change any time soon.
A friend of mine has been telling me for months about preparing for a guesting to talk about my favorite warrior princess, Xena. And while I love her and the show all of a sudden I don’t feel confident of doing her justice in an interview. I am SURE there is some out there more knowledgeable about Xena than me. I’m a big fan, don’t get me wrong, but I’m not so obsessed with the show that I would remember specific people, places, show titles, when who appeared, which particular episode number, etc. I know the word “fan” was coined from the word “fanatic” but sadly I don’t feel I have the requisite obsession to be aptly called a fanatic.
In desperation, I feel that this Holy Week I will have to watch all the episodes of Xena from the first episode to the last (hehehe) just to refresh myself on the knowledge. What a task! It’s a tough job but someone has to do it.
Maybe I am not ready to be the first NWA group to be featured at this point but I will prepare nonetheless. If nothing else, the process will definitely be fun.
In the meantime, though, I need to work out to get my body more Xena-esque than it is now. Right now I have a “soft-chewy center” so I don’t think I will do well in a fight against brigands, hehehe.